tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post7440839384616862621..comments2024-03-26T05:15:39.663-07:00Comments on Equestrian Ink: My Current GoalsJami Davenporthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05259390150273030284noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-48236247706078154912008-11-29T16:07:00.000-08:002008-11-29T16:07:00.000-08:00Nice photos!Nice photos!Jessica Burkhart https://www.blogger.com/profile/01392565903843981091noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-37765430860415648292008-11-27T09:12:00.000-08:002008-11-27T09:12:00.000-08:00That's very flattering, Janet, and I apreciate you...That's very flattering, Janet, and I apreciate your saying it, but I kind of feel like an imposter if I even pretend for a moment that I've gotten somewhere special. I think we're all on the same path...and there's lots of us, as I learned from your blog and the VLC. The thing is, I admire you for being so much more energetically creative than I am at this point, so it seems like we're both admiring the other for that little piece we feel is missing in ourselves. The old "grass is always greener" syndrome. I admire both you and Cathy for being willing to still get on green horses--I'm way too chicken to do that any more. So, there you go, we all have strengths and weaknesses. And I, too, am grateful for our odd cyberfriendship and all I have learned from this world of "horse bloggers".Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-80354506645715493202008-11-27T08:29:00.000-08:002008-11-27T08:29:00.000-08:00"If you want to translate the world, you need to u..."If you want to translate the world, you need to use your appetites....There's no creation without talent...but talent is cheap. Talent goes begging. Hunger is the piston of art." Stephen King (believe it or not)<BR/>I am chronically hungry. I worry about getting old and having no money. I worry about my daughter being able to go to college. I spend my life with an underlying fear that I am trivial, and sooner or later I will be found out.<BR/>I worry that I'm not good enough, always. I worry that my pursuit of making a living through my "talent" is selfish and destructive to my family. (No benefits, no savings, no retirement). I have to learn and progress in order to justify my choices.<BR/>Hunger will not let me relax. Ever.<BR/>I think VLC is a little like that.<BR/>Part of why I admire and like Laura so much is she had found the place where she can let go. It is extremely hard to get there. I am trying hard to learn from her. <BR/>Laura has been hungry, but she's been able to take the edge off. We're both fans of Thoreau after all. The difference is, I long for it, Laura has gone there.mugwumphttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00319060800328355056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-48909060156512377282008-11-27T08:11:00.000-08:002008-11-27T08:11:00.000-08:00Thanks Joy and Cathy, I enjoyed reading your insig...Thanks Joy and Cathy, I enjoyed reading your insights on Thanksgiving morning. Its interesting to me that there are so many of us middle-aged women (OK, I think you, Cathy are at least 10 years younger than me so I hope I'm not insulting you) who are in some sense or other "re-riders" (I learned this term on your VLC blog) in the sense that we used to do more with horses than we do now. We all seem to be struggling with similar issues (the fear thing, the should I be doing more thing, the weight/fitness thing), and we all seem to have the underlying realization that letting go of the goal oriented way we spent our youth and embracing a freer, more intuitive path based on what we really want to do in the moment is the way to go. We are all finding we enjoy our horses more this way. And yet we struggle with the conflict between this mindset and the way we think we "ought" to be. For most of us the "ought" comes from the way we were raised, and the way we perceive that society views us. I have so enjoyed the dialogue on this subject that I've read on both the VLC blog and mugwump's blog. <BR/>Cathy, I really hope Horse Reunions works out for you and is a big success. It is a great concept and should be a huge gift to many people. And it just seems to me that having the most successful horse blog around ought to pay you something (!) I am still hoping that all this blog stuff (which I find very entertaining) will increase my book sales. I have no idea if its working, though.<BR/>Happy Thanksgiving! I've got to go feed my horses.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-73277969316471942402008-11-26T23:21:00.000-08:002008-11-26T23:21:00.000-08:00I've been struggling with my feelings that I don't...I've been struggling with my feelings that I don't get enough done in general and have lost my guts with horses for years, and I think I'm just finally letting it go. I'm getting <I>other</I> things done that are equally valuable. I do not <I>need</I> to retrain every mystery-historied flipped out rescue horse in the world. <BR/><BR/>I think most of us have trouble accepting that one phase of our life is over and another has begun, and things are just different. I still beat myself up over the fact that I used to have really cool high-paying jobs in L.A. Never mind that I was miserable and fat because I stress-ate all the time, but based upon the standards drilled into me by my mom, I was successful then and now I am not. I figure I'll get over it eventually, or Horse Reunions will take off and I'll be able to say, see, I can be successful without sitting in an office 7 days a week and spending my life on endless conference calls...verylargecolthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18035418539530230889noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-28188112974615433242008-11-26T17:07:00.000-08:002008-11-26T17:07:00.000-08:00Happy Thanksgiving to you too Laura Crum! I like ...Happy Thanksgiving to you too Laura Crum! <BR/><BR/>I like your goals. Mine are similar. I used to be very career oriented. I was an executive and made lots of money. Through a series of unfortunate (at the time) and life changing events, I am waaaaaay more low key these days. <BR/><BR/>I work 30 hours a week and sometimes I think it might kill me. I ride whenever I like, but I admit I'm dedicated to that only because my horse is healing from an injury and he has to move. Every day. So that's my motivator. If he was still in his top form, I can pretty sure I would putz around and get him out when my whims dictated.<BR/><BR/>My point being, I'm much happier now. I'm much more healthy mentally and spiritually. I love life and I don't feel the need to prove anything to anyone. It's real freedom (except for the lack of funding at times) and I love it.<BR/><BR/>I think you may have it right when you say "zen mama". I think you just might be. And more power to you zen mama!Joyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00977898784588176802noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-63600501652769732192008-11-26T07:57:00.000-08:002008-11-26T07:57:00.000-08:00Leslie, I hear you. I am actually quite happy with...Leslie, I hear you. I am actually quite happy with my life, and if I have a goal, it is to simplify things even further, to have more time for watching the plants grow and the sun rise and set...etc. But this sort of goal is in such marked contrast to the lives around me that I sometimes wonder how I ended up with this mindset. Still, every time I sit down and reread a page or two out of Henry David's book, I know I'm on the right path.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5037107797013641705.post-20416896074581124552008-11-26T06:23:00.000-08:002008-11-26T06:23:00.000-08:00Laura, I "hear" myself talking, through your post....Laura, I "hear" myself talking, through your post. <BR/><BR/>I was able to "retire" from working in the outside world, for now. For that I am grateful. But the reasons I left the outside work world, well, I haven't goaled up on them yet. Still working on it. Sometimes I ask myself the same questions you are asking yourself.<BR/><BR/>I enjoy my simpler life, most of the time. That's what I've come to realize. I'm happy it's uncomplicated right now, but do question myself some days. You're not alone! <BR/>Leslie~Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00224646742863478548noreply@blogger.com