I have been writing and publishing since 1984 when my first story appeared in Highlights magazine. Sixty plus books later, you would think I would have the hang of this crazy business. Yet here I am once again in panic mode.
Writing I LOVE, but every stage thereafter sends me into nervous jitters. Right now I have a completed novel with my agent. I love it; she loves it. Next week it will get sent out to prospective editors. Will any of them love it? Or will it politely get rejected for some obscure reason? (Doesn't fit our list. Too similar. Too different. Marketing hates it. We're only doing Twilight clones. Blah blah.)
In March and May I had two books published. Terrific, yes. Terrifying, absolutely. Because in today's publishing world, the fate of an author's books is in her hands. That brings up promotion, which I agonize over every day. Am I doing enough? Is what I'm doing working? And if it's not working, will my book, which I researched and wrote for a year, disappear?
When I go to conferences, I am envious of the authors who are also mini-publicists. I'd rather write (and ride and garden and hang with my kids and take walks with my dogs.) Only my horses, kids and dogs don't buy my books. So I guest blog and Facebook and send out postcards. I check sales on Amazon and "Big Buzz" on Ice Rocket, and worry that my books are getting lost in the flood of novels with titles like Fang and Crazy Girl.
Fortunately, through the years, I have added a fourth and fifth 'p' to 'publish, promote and panic.' Perseverance plus my love of writing keeps me persisting. I'd love to hear from other writers--do you also panic? And how do you deal with it?